Why, Oh Why

    Erin says she grew up in a rural Texas town, the small town life atmosphere has always appealed to me and that is why I currently reside here. I have the city life girl burrowed deep within me though and sometimes she is able to escape to Dallas and have a good time. I was a very awkward child, and when ADD was not even understood, I had it, and spent a lot of time in the principals office. I grew up very much a tomboy. Once I hit 18, I set out on the world and started school. My major was to be journalism, then in 1999, tragedy hit me and I nearly died in a car accident. The outer wounds healed rather quickly leaving me with the inner scars I still deal with daily. I try to see each day as a new one and keep family and friends really close to my heart where they belong. I enjoy music and photography and my love for writing has stayed with me since I was a child. Now as a 29 year old woman, I spend most days still day dreaming and working hard to make them come true. I am currently in school full time and will complete my journalism degree with a minor in music. Pink is my absolute favorite color! I write poetry and am currently working on my first book about my life.

 

Erin was chosen because of her flair with words and her ability to find real day to day instances in which Plus Sized people say WHY, Oh, WHY.

Life

with Erin Thompson

    For some reason today I was extremely emotional, not to sure why, either...It was odd, like something bigger than me was at work. I tried to hold back the tears but everything was extremely real to me today. Why Oh Why do I get like this sometimes? It is like I see everything in the world through binoculars. I enjoy and it gives me a sense of sensitivity. I no longer see the world through rose colored glasses and am usually able to sum people up after one meeting, but lately I have found that I am very sensitive to those who are worse off in life than I am.

     In my ideal life, I work on a volunteer basis for PETA, I am a Goodwill Ambassador and I am traveling all over the world helping anyone and everyone I can. Then reality sets in and I realize my fantasy does not pay my car payment or my bills, so I have to continue to get up daily and go to work for a man who has a big heart but in all the wrong places and with all the wrong people. Do not get me wrong, I am extremely grateful for my job, but lately my morals have been tested with the attitudes I have to face daily. I have found that my faith is becoming a lot stronger because I have been turning to Him for a lot more than just prayer time.

     My attitude while improving daily has also become different and I am ok with the changes. Things that use to bother me really don't anymore and some things that did bother me before are getting worse. It is all part of me being on the brink of 30. I feel like sometimes we just need a simple encouragement to smile, get out of bed, be a better person, lift someone up, and change the world. I do believe that each person has equal opportunity to change the world in their own special way. Everyone is given a good heart to start with and it is what you do with that heart that matters. Whether, you are skinny, fat, short, tall, Asian, Black, White, Latino, YOU CAN CHANGE THE WORLD.

     I am becoming the person I think was always in me screaming to get out and you can be too! I am finding a lot of peace in the Bible. God has the most amazing way of making you feel better, he really does. He lifts you up when you are down! I have found that just being yourself, no matter what that is and just believing in that more than anything in the world and you will be successful in this life. You will have peace in your mind and in your heart. I know, most of you are saying, she is probably so emotional because she is about to start her period or something, but it is not true folks. I am REALLY finding that inner peace that a person needs to survive and I want you to find it to! I use to really feel fat all the time. It was like my whole existence was summed up because I was the fat girl. I am starting to more and more be comfortable with exactly who I am in this world. I am starting to live life the way it was intended to live, plus size or not. I am extremely confident that you all can do the same in your lives. Pick yourself up off the floor from the pity parties. Be who you are in this moment and like your mother always said, "Always hold the golden rule close to your heart." DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU!

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